I Want More — teia said

To feel. To want and experience. We all crave for closeness. To be one with something. With some one. Or the one. We all want more. We need more. Why? This complexity. The aspiration for evolvement. The idea that possibilities are undoubtedly endless... Do we not? Am I alone in this space? Not? K great. Good. Because, I need you too.

I often think about the need for more. When I wake up in the morning I know my alarm goes off with the reminder of work. For more money. For my bills. For the the vacation. The food. The gift. I go for more. But, no matter what I go with a choice. The gift to do this is plentiful... Do you see what I mean? Not the gift to work, because this is beautiful. Like, let's break it down. Knowing you are fulfilling something, that is a gift. Bless God for this place, we all grow here. But back to what I was saying --

Wanting is a gift. When we recognize the power we have in knowing this we will change our perspective of more. This God given gift to want more has been tasked with a negative crutch it never asked for. Which, I for one have cheered on that team. The reason I believe this is a gift is because, when we open our minds up to the opportunity to believe we allow God to be. And that is powerful. This is when the world itself shakes. This gift of expanding our realities. To see God in a broader capacity. This place changes lives by reminding them of their purposes..

And said, "Truly, I say to you, unless you turn and become like children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven". Matthew 18:3*

How often do you wonder about the home you want. Daydreaming about how it would feel at the beach. Wondering how satisfied you'd be giving to others. I believe those things we daydream about a small portion of us believes its possible. One may call it imagination. Another, as myself, may call it faith... do you see why the innocent* is whom God speak of so highly? Our imaginative state we live in as a child knows all is possible because you're called. We are born with the desire to want more because God is more... The way we define more shifts as we experience life. So, what may hold the quality of more when we are pure will not appear the same when we're the opposite. And when I say pure I mean free. Free of shame, guilt, burdens, lack, people, places, tings.. ya? You get me man.

Now you may think, " I mean duh girl I want more, but I mean what else, thats it?" it kinda is... The thing about our desires is that God is fully aware. Like undeniably aware, because we're that tight. Like we're one. He knows. But, how do you feel about the things you want? Do you want your bills to be paid because it feels like a burden? And we don't like the way those feel of course. But that job is a pain too. Those co-workers are annoying too.. and.. and.... You're negative. How can you want more and not be happy from which the place your more will birth?

I want more. A part of me wanting more has lead me to retire old habits and creating anew. My mores are my daydreams and I'm watching them unfold. Because I believe God, period. More is abundance. More is believing in the unimaginable and knowing it is possible just because. Lack does not existence. Not in the reality I want. I hope it doesn't exist in yours either. I do hope you missed me though :)

with love always,