These 20 Somethings
If God wanted to extend the emotional feels of our puberty days, I'm talking 12-13ish, I'd say our 20's is just that. I know I can hear an older, wiser, and mature adults saying "quit crying." But whatever lol. That little cliche' we see around social media from time to time that says, "our 20's is like being old enough to have everything together yet too young to know how." Frankly, I pride myself on my mental security. I'm pretty stable, my life is showering with blessings daily I'm sure I hardly even account for. Nonetheless, I still find myself feeling inadequate and confused with my successful 24 year old self. I mean it could be the slight approach to the quarter life crisis (ew, what) or that itch from recently graduating #UCOAlum. Whatever it is I find the same shady and incomplete feelings in my friends.
Our realities seem to be super phased out. People are ACTUALLY getting married, asking you to be in their weddings, your bringing gifts to your friends baby showers, you have a whole savings account for life's necessities and not just trips. I'm a bit melo-dramatic so chill with me a bit, lol. In the peak of our adulthood, in the moment where life is utterly confusing yet blissfully amazing we feel stuck. For about a week I've been wondering what makes our 30's,40's 50's + so different? What happens? In conversation and just watching folks interaction I think it's fearlessness.
I care about everything. If it'll be humid and my hair is gunna poof. If I coated my lashes enough times. If I should've gotten a coffee tomorrow instead of today. The way that stranger thinks I look in my dress. If he's ever gunna call back. If I'll ever really learn how to cook. If.. If.. If.. Iiifffff ... see the pattern? I place so much value and empty faith in these "ifs."
The act of living life free. Like free as my hair freshly washed and air dried and feels like peppermint oil on my fresh scalp - least I'd assume lol. But seriously - fear becomes an attachment to our souls, which breeds regrets and a life filled of "what ifs." I think this is the real captive of our young adulthood - more or less, because we aren't our TRUE selves.
So - what is the opposite of fear? I googled it and it said "not courage," lol kinda sucks huh?! I think it's just faith. Faith is funny because it isn't represented in just the "hopeful" ways but in the "UGHHHH OKAYYY." When you gotta make yourself keep on keeping on. When you begin to believe in your on life more than any ounce of your melo-dramatic ways :). You know that scripture, "God has not given you a spirit of fear...." Yeah I like that one, but I wanna share my favorite one. I share it a lot - but I speak this over myself more than once a week. For me it's comforting and reassuring, because I understand in this season of my 20's much will change.
It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed (Deut. 31:8).
There's been three maajjoorr keys I've picked up in the past couple months. I've done one of these forever and the other two I can't do without.
Reading. Praying with a friend. Meditating.
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I have a friend that is dependable and she holds me accountable to pray every.single.day. Like clock work, it doesn't matter if I'm tired or seriously NOT feeling like praying. She prays for what I feel like I can't. This has been such a shift. To have that consistency is refreshing for my personal prayer life too! Plus!!! Where two or more are gathered, it's lit (Matt 18:20).
I've picked up meditating. In moments where I feel flustered Four-Part Breathing has been a maajjoorrr game changer. I follow along a guided meditation created by Shelah Marie. It's available via Spotify, iTunes and YouTube. My personal favorite tracks are Authentic Voice and Acceptance
with love always,
